Fear

Hey guys,

So today I wanted to talk about what I'm afraid. No not about spiders, darkness and things like that.

I'm really scared of talking and everytime I'm gonna talk with new person who don't even know me, in my head I'll say it about 100 times because I'm afraid to say something wrong, to be rude or something like that. Everytime when I did that and already talked to a person I'm still mad at myself because I said something I didn't want to. But when I talk to people about this kind of situation I always laugh because I don't understand what happens to me but when I go to the shop again and have to talk is again the same thing and it's like circle.

I don't want to call that social anxiety because if I don't have it I don't want to be rude (I don't know if that word fits here) or make them sad (?) because it's really bad and nothing that people should want. 

Comment what you think if it's social anxiety or something that I'll just grow up of. What you afraid?

“Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. Free yourself!”

—  Bryant McGill